Hello everyone, I am writing to you because at the moment I am full of doubts.
Since September I am trying to attract a specific person. Initially, it was a simple crush on a person with whom I had never talked and with whom there was only an intense eye-contact*, and so I said why not? I felt there was some kind of connection, and I just wanted to have the chance to meet him. But over time it became almost a challenge, it was not fun anymore and it started to hurt. On the other hand, this also helped me to understand more myself and a different aspect of the LOA.
Anyway... I spoke to him for the first time today. Months ago this would have been a great achievement, but now I just feel very sad. First, because it seems to me that I have manipulated too much the situation, I know that the universe brought me the opportunity but at the same time, I felt I had struggled too much to get to this point. Besides, it was not as I had imagined it, I wanted to make some impression, but it was just a superficial exchange of words. I think I'm too involved now, it's no longer a simple crush and can't just have fun with the process ...
This whole situation made me start doubting everything, I was hoping for something special, but the truth of the matter, the idea that that moment was so shallow and cold, it destroyed me emotionally. Honestly, I do not know what to do anymore, I feel I lost hope, and I'm also very tired of doing anything else. I realized that I do not trust enough of the universe and I have to constantly do something;and besides, for two months I will be away and I will not have the chance to see him (this is also why I was in such a hurry for something to happen)... and the more I write, the more I realize that I already know where I am wrong. So sorry for the outburst but if you have any encouragement or reflection, it would be much appreciated.
*to clarify the situation, this person is a professor of my university, I study in a completely different course, so we have no professional connection but still, I can't just go and talk to him.
You had clearly some negative momentum going on about that subject (given maybe by your fears and doubts) so focus on easiest subjects until all your insecurities are gone and you start enjoying love with crazy enthusiasm & eagerness.
SENDING YOU MAGICAL BLESSINGS****** & a quote :D :
Thank you :)