i am immersed in a web of taking care of everyone else- fixing things for everyone else close to me. Meanwhile I've been unhappy for the longest time. I'm drowning in a lack of joy. Guilt over my broken family. I can't even type the words because of the guilt. Ok here goes.
Well i sat there a bit and decided that the details dont matter or at least I don't feel like saying it all. Let me try again. I love each person in my family but one of my children is transgender and this has caused others confusion and grief and to me this is unacceptable! Unconditional love is EXPECTED! I won't tolerate anything less. So I have had to choose and this has caused my family to break apart. Problem is I am having trouble letting go of worrying about the others. Bottom line-I love all of my children equally. Every one of them is welcome in my home. ALWAYS. I'm disgusted with her father and yet he is so weak that I feel guilt. So weak. And I want to be the example of what true love is. I want to do what is right for everyone. I also just want to allow myself to be happy. To let them each handle what comes their way. I want to give myself permission to LIVE & let live. Thank you for letting me vent.
We are all so proud of you hunny. You are one amazing lady. I hope all is well with you. Sending you love as always
Update! Wow! I havesomehow lifted myself up! Thank you all for the boost! Sometimes for me I write something and then I say NAH that's not where I wanna Ben and I pivot and that's what happened! It was the last little bit of resistance and poof it is gone! The bandaid took YEARS to come off. But it is finally off and I am feeling so free and so relieved! From this moment forward until foreveri am happy! I deserve it!!!! Love you all and thank you! xoxo
:) Hi Laura! All is well! I would love to see your latest creations!! Post something!