So I am reading a book right now called The Power of Now, and the author said in the book that in order to figure out what is causing a negative pattern in your life, one should watch the thought, but pay close attention to the emotion. The pattern that has been happening in my life is that when a woman, man, or group of people is infatuated with me, the attraction is instantly killed due to fear. It happens every time a woman is seducing me, or if it's a male friend that likes me, or a group of people that like me. I observed the fear, and noticed it is fear of abandonment that has been causing this pattern for years. When I was a kid, we moved around a lot and were never stable, and not only that, but both sides of my mom and dad's family rejected me, because they both had divorces. Also, my religious community rejected me after my father passed away when I was 12, and they absolutely did not give a shit about me when this happened. My parents also kept pulling me out of schools, because I was constantly getting targeted and bullied by other kids.
Based on what I'm seeing, it looks like the law of attraction began working when I was an infant going into preschool based on my parent's situation. But since I know what is now causing the pattern, it's now going to be easier to notice it before it gets worse and the law of attraction responds to the vibration of the fear being emitted. Even when I met a woman that wanted to have sex with me in her car, I remember my words saying "getting a girlfriend won't make me happy". I was in tears when this happened, so right there, the writing is on the wall. I've also tried surrounding myself in clubs, communities, group projects, and it didn't work.
As of right now, I'm thinking what I have to do is to make sure I'm always happy and confident being alone since there's a time and place for everything. In order to get the law of attraction to give me a healthy and active social life, I'm thinking I have to be specific as to what I'm looking for. If I want family, friends, and a girlfriend, then I feel that I have to be specific to what this means to me exactly and precisely. All my family is in other states, my co-workers don't seem to want to go out that much, I just.....I don't know. All I am doing is going to work, coming home and playing video games.
I could use the law of attraction to orchestrate a social life. Looking for some people here with wisdom and knowledge that could aid me on what to do. Thank you.
Sometimes it's difficult to overcome our fears so i think the best thing to do is to totally focus on what we want so that what we fear can not manifest. Here are some words by a great coach who makes you believe in true love :)) - the captions too:
If you enjoy the process you can't have bad surprises! The caption too:
Isn't this the real answer?: