everybody ,whoever is reading this post please share your pearls of wisdom and let me know what could be the possible way to fight back my tears? still a single reference of my ex,makes me cry.Whenever i speak to him ,he tries to talk ,that makes me sad cuz we aren't together.
i want it to get away,i was reading that thin line difference between -DESIRE and DESPERATION but i think i tend to cross the line of desperation at times cuz i get so emotionally overwhelmed. I have to stop letting this happen to me .I want him to care and bother himself up cuz of me but not at the stake of my happiness.I really want to be happy and loved and that is the way i am but i don't know what happens to me when he comes around.
I have read allot of self help books,did a lot of activities post my breakup still strings are attached that even a simple text from him has the potential to make me cry.
i am a very simple girl with allot of dreams .I am just 19,i really want to explore this world and its beautiful things rather than toiling with my emotions at such a tender age.Its been 3 years since this guy comes ,hurts and goes off. i have had enough ,i want total detachment from him.
complete detachment ,but still i want him to value me and realize my importance.The moment i stop taking his calls ,he becomes restless and keeps calling me and chasing me and whenever i give in and talk to him ,he again stems back to his old ways.I thought i could be friends with him and still be the moral and emotional crutch for him and he could be the same for me but thats not happening ,rather i end be hurting myself whenever i speak to him cuz i attach expectations to talk to him more and see more of him which doesnt happen anymore.