I have always wanted to manifest a relationship. I made a list and changed my beliefs regarding relationships. Also, i have been trying to give myself everything i crave from partnerships. For example, love, affection, being spoiled etc. Everything has been working out fine. However, there is one thing that i crave for in a relationship and dont know how to give to myself. This one thing is the desire to be next to a consciously masculine man. I really crave and desire to be next to this masculine energy. I am a female who is already really feminine and the more identified i become with feminine energy, the more i crave masculine energy. Because i crave masculine energy and cant give myself the feeling of masculinity that i crave in another person, i believe i am resisting attracting a relationship that i want. So does anyone know anything thag i can do in order to give myself the satisfaction of being enamored by masculine energy without seeking it outside of myself?
What would you consider ‘masculine’? You don’t need to give the feeling to yourself, you just need to assume a potential partner already exists with the qualities you desire. How would you feel if your significant other possessed masculine qualities? Try and imagine what it would be like to have a relationship with your desired person and just soak up the feelings that come about as products of your imagination.
It's not the feeling of masculinity you're looking for, rather it's the feeling of femininity and being embraced by the masculine.
So out of interest - how have you changed your beliefs? You see a lot of times when people say they have changed their beliefs, they have put in efforts to consciously change beliefs, but over imposed beliefs on top of subconscious beliefs. So its a question to help ascertain how you have cleared the beliefs. Now "trying" is something to avoid. Either do or do not (aka as Yoda in star wars says). Any time you "try" anything it means usually that we expect to fail. Now what you are labelling as masculine energy you can find in a number of different ways. There is nothing wrong with desiring it from a living man at all, I'm simply offering you food for thought here. Now like most things, what we say becomes true for us - so when you say I cannot give the feeling of masculinity - guess what - thats an order you have just placed and will become true for you.
There was a great book entitled Feminine Fusion by Chris Griscom that has exercises and details about calling up our inner male or inner female counterparts and offers some guidance as to how to do this. That may be worthwhile reading.