I remember the bullying, abuse in the past and I'm saddened that in this lifetime I haven't had any female experiences such as a mother who I lost a long time ago, my sister is not very nice, my aunties don't like me, I've got no female cousins and when I went to uni in the past I did not attract any female friends and I've had it hard with making female friends.
Im an expert in Loa, I've read all the loa books-abe hicks, Wayne dyer, Deepak chopra the lot.
Ive also took down a lot of notes.
if it's not meant to be then I'm afraid it's not meant to be.
the universe is not putting anything into my experience.
for so many years I've been wishing and it hasn't come into my experience the female friends.
Okay well there are a few things that jump out at me from reading your post. Great that you have read that material - it will be useful later on for sure. Now you say you have been wishing, and you know from what you have read already that wishing is actually providing resistance to what you think you desire to come into being, by way of focusing on the lack of that which you desire to show up. Now the universe doesn't think like you are suggesting, in that it doesn't give you desires for anything that cannot be created, so its probably a good idea to rephrase that whole story you got going on.
Now as with any friendship, you start off vibrating that and creating it by being the best friend to yourself that you can be at this moment in time. You see when you decide to focus on that, things will start to magically happen to you.
You need to forgive the past, because you are still holding onto an energetic block. Did your mother die when you were very young? Did you grow up without a positive female role model? Did this then leave with negative females who have since become your 'template' on what women in general are like? If you answer yes to these, then you will have an energetic block around women, which very understandably, has had a major impact on you. You never developed a loving relationship with your mother because you just didn't have the chance to. This has then rolled over to become your experience of never being able to form lasting bonds with any kind of women.
But you don't have to experience this for the rest of your life, because the practice of forgiveness will dissolve the energetic block, and help you to attract the women you do desire. Forgive your mother for 'abandoning' you (even if she couldn't actually help it). For whatever reason, it has happened, and maybe it was because of some soul agreement which was made before you both incarnated into this life. Forgive her, and say that you love her and wish her well. Forgive yourself as well. Whenever any bad feelings come up regarding women, or any self-criticisms come up, affirm that you FORGIVE AND YOU MOVE ON. Thank your mother for giving birth to you, and forgive her.
This will then set wheels into motion in your everyday reality as long as you keep at it. Good luck.