I'm in crises. I'm manifesting SO MANY things continually not working out. I'm so angry all of the time.
I'm becoming very afraid for my health. People around me are manipulating me when I need support instead. Should my first order to be find ways to STOP the anger? I have a rotted pain now in my stomach from feeling so let down, and I'm making mistakes that are ridiculous that are contributing to sabatoge my situation so things don't go smoothly. * honestly think I'm struggling with trusting that supportive and loving helping people can help me get on my feet where I've moved, so I'm contributing without wanting to-to the problems. I want a low income housing situation with a private bedroom and steady work that is on par with my abilities and education and that I CAN DO with my body being present and not having it even more severely injured from labor work! *I don't want to go on disability right now. I want the U to take great care of me! I am doing all I can to FIND work, in my rural situation. I want to MOVE immediately into the town I'm in right at this minute or into the next town over where I might be able to volunteer and get a very nice stipen to live on while doing so starting in Nov.
Hey Laura most of the times we feel stuck or angry because we have a lot of unreleased negative emotions/trauma. Here is a really good video that can be very useful for understanding the abuse, go over it and regain your full power:
"Physical pain is just an extension of emotion. It's all the same thing. There are two emotions. One feels good and one feels bad. Which means, you're connected to your Energy Stream or you're not allowing your Energy Stream."
Laura, I am wondering if maybe you are thinking too much about HOW the Universe is going to get you what you want. For example, if someone wants a lot of money, instead of wishing they could win the lottery, they should instead focus on what they would do with the money, actually imagine having it and spending it, and feeling the way they would if they had it. That really stuck with me when I read that advice, because I have an overactive imagination and when I want something I start thinking about different routes the Universe could use to get it to me, and what that actually does is NARROW the Universe's options for getting you what you want, because you are unintentionally putting up resistance to alternate methods. I know that you had a post up awhile back about wanting a work-for-rent situation. Maybe you should stop trying to plan HOW you are going to get the living situation you want, and just focus on what exactly it is you want. Also, maybe stop focusing so much on WHERE you want to live. Just think about what you want and let the Universe work it out. I know you want to be safe and not stressed out. You want to be around decent, caring people. Focus on how you want to FEEL in your living situation, instead of trying to plan every detail. There might be something perfect for you that you haven't even considered but you're putting up obstacles for the Universe by focusing so intently on what you think you need to do to get it. I hope things get better for you.