I completely feel for you, I am going through something similar. I was hired by a start up 9 months ago for a marketing position. The job was supposed to be entry level/internship yet I never received training. After a couple of months my boss started saying that by now I should have become an end-to-end marketer and my performance is unacceptable for 2 months in. Anyways I continued trying and with a lot of ups and downs I did make some progress. But in November my boss started involving me in the business development process as well, which meant half the time for my marketing tasks. I found business development a little more interesting and felt like I was better at it. I hoped that after some time I would be able to negotiate my position and switch to bus. dev. permanently. But the company hired another person full time for that role and they keep comparing my results with hers. Yet she has had full training (she has a different boss than me) and has full time to dedicate into becoming better at it. Go figure. Anyway, I have seen however that other people in the company have gradually moved to different roles. Yet it took months (even years) to re-define their role. I think they slowly started putting a little more effort into their new role and showed solid results, so after some time they got promoted/switched to the new role. I don't think this however is possible in all cases, sometimes the timing is not right and maybe you also have some resistance towards you boss as well?
Thank you so much, Marianna. You are right. I do have a certain amount of resistance towards my boss as my training under him was pretty stressful. I think in many ways they are happy with me, and really like having me around. Our current project manager left 2 months ago, but they still haven't hired anyone new. Just making do with the people already there. The timing is right because I know they want someone in that role, and they would rather have someone they know in the role. I guess it's just my resistance that is preventing me from seeing it as a concrete reality. I'm looking for ways to make this more believable to me, to make it more tangible on a daily basis and really feel like I'm headed towards that project management profile.
Hi Sir Neil, I took your advice and started changing my mindset to align with other, more viable opportunities. It seems like a lot of doors are opening up. I do have visa restrictions and will only be able to switch over to another job after 6-8 months. But there's a lot of promising things lining up, and I need to be patient until then.
But you're right. A little bit of introspection had me decide that this is not where I want to be, or how I want my everyday work-life to look, not how I want my relationship with my boss to be. The constant anxiety and tension gets to me. The disorganization, the day-to-day changes, the hourly changes, no intimation of plans until 6 p.m. and no weekly planning of my schedule (which is highly dependent on other people), it's all too much stress. I don't see the point of waiting 2-3 years to get to a better place when I can make that change sooner. I guess I was just a bit scared to even consider the thought of finding a job, going through the whole hassle again. But it's really much easier this time around.
Thank you for being so frank with me.