"A change for the better" would never satisfy you or anyone, ever. Again, my reply here is the same as in your other post.
There comes a time when you just stop all the running of ideas and feelings and surrender, sit still right where you are, as you are, and look to see what is within the darkness, the monsters, obstacles and negations. All you will ever find is "that I am". That I am the beginning, and the ending, first and last. The darkness and the light are all the same to me, light is all I see. There never was or is a "there, they, them, it" anywhere but within I.
The truth is God is All that is, the One and only I that I Am. One and All.
So true super wise Roses!