First if all you need to release all negative thoughts from your mind. You have to let go of whatever has happened in the past. Make yourself happy first then only you can change everything around you. Start doing things for yourself. Then ask the Universe for your desire. Visualize it. Practice gratitude. Act as if you already have it. Practise your affirmations and let go. Dont fret on when it will happen. Live your present and the rest would follow.