I tend to get lost between distinguishing good feeling thoughts that come automatically and thinking about the things I want and obsessing over them.
What I mean is, when I let myself flow without trying to make anything happen, good feeling thoughts about my intentions come regularly and it feels amazing!! However, after continually milking those thoughts I no longer know if I am trying to make me feel good by conjuring them, or even when I'm faced with contrast, and before I know it I'm over thinking and feeling negative/needy/desperate for them.
Should I completely distract myself from those topics and find other present things to focus upon? I always say, okay I will completely let them go this time, and I can do it for 3 days in a row (Which ALWAYS reveal exciting dreamy sneak peaks of my manifestations) but after that I try to take control again without even realizing it. How can I understand once and for all that the life I dream of with all the specifics is in my vortex and just let the universe do its thing ?
When letting it all go I guess I'm just afraid of ignoring chances of receiving good feeling thoughts about my manifestations to get even closer, but my obsession hasn't helped! (Imagine receiving a good feeling thought about something you want and ignoring it cause you know you'll start obsessing afer that.. gives me anxiety!)