Ever since I was 18 I never had any friends, never hung out with anyone, did not date, had no family, and the list goes on. My entire life has been circulated behind a computer screen, and I'm going onto 33 years old at the moment. When I began studying spirituality this past 3 years, I finally found out what was causing it, and it was strong anti-social behaviors that were in the back of my head. I did not know about the law of attraction back in the day, and I would have stopped all this from happening before it was too late. What happened is that because I practiced these behaviors for so long, I ended up turning into a ghost where people just didn't notice me anymore. I could literally walk into any room, concert, or whatever, and this could go on for hours while people just laughed and talked in the background. To get a person to talk to me, or to go on a date was a miracle. I developed a ton of mental disorders including bi-polar and autism, and the reason why I was acting this way was due to a religious cult I was in.
Basically, this is how it works. The positive and negative sides in the universe work much like a rabbit hole. The deeper you go into something negative, the longer it takes to climb out. It's like a staircase, and every category in the universe has this staircase whether it is relationships, money, health etc. If you've practiced avoiding people for years, you will lose touch with social reality. If you've had negative vibes about health for years, you will develop more illnesses which could take longer to cure. The simplest way I can explain how it works is imagine you walking into a castle, and there are two staircases. Taking the staircase that goes down will put you further and further into the dungeon, and the further you go, the worse it gets with rats, water, bones....then blood....then dead people....then monsters, etc. That's how the sliding scale works. You can't say "Oh, I'm going to avoid people for 5 years, and then make friends when I feel like it". No, once you make the verdict on anything, the door has been sealed. You wouldn't go to a judge and file divorce against someone you were in love with.
The thing is that there's no way to manifest getting out of this hole faster. The creator has told me that I'm nearly there, and there is proof, because the ghosting thing has faded more and more over the past 2 years. Just recently, I had a group of people at a table talk to me, and ask me how I was doing. This has never happened before, and this is a very good sign I'm nearly out of the dungeon. I would say by the middle of 2019 is when this whole ghosting thing is going to end. How do I know this for sure? By seeing doppelgangers of people in my past whom I screwed over, turned down, etc.
For countless years I've sat in my room staring out the window. I'm just tired of the suffering, and it needs to end. Is there anyway to manifest the curing process faster, or is this going to be my fate for the next year and a half? I just wish the law of attraction had like a band-aid someone could put on in times like this. Sadly, I don't think there's a way around this. It's like putting cookies into the oven and then trying to figure out how to bake them in a few seconds when that technology is impossible. Looks like I'm stuck here until I fully get out. This sucks.....
It's never too late to turn things around. Every day is another opportunity to do. I liked your staircase analogy, as someone who's been to really low depths as well, I can certainly relate to how difficult it is to make a jump from one step to the other. Nevertheless you can do it, and you can gradually ascend up these staircases.
I think something really helpful would be to implement better habits. One, would be signing up to a gym and starting to exercise. Not only will this increase your vibration, improve your body, give your more self esteem, but also put you in a place where you can socialize with people more. Also, going out into nature is great. Going to parks, beaches, forests - really, anything around you is great. In other words, getting out of your mind more, and into your body. Just these two things are a great starting point, and one you build positive momentum, it will start accelerating even more.
I am signed up with two gyms actually, and I have my own private instructor. I haven't gone for 2 months, and the reason why is because I just got over a health situation from a job I just quit that was preventing me from going. To make a long story short, it was stress, food poisoning, and the stomach flu all combined into one. I really think this episode was a transformation, because I've noticed that whenever I get sick, I see doors open.
I've tried Meetup.com, and it doesn't work that well for me, because the people are all strangers. Craigslist is full of nutcases, and I won't going back to school until next semester. I understand what you mean by its not too late to turn things around, I just really feel like a snail at this rate. It's just taking so long to manifest this desire.
Yes, I have used my imagination to get myself motivated out of the dungeon. Earlier last year, I saw a vision of a sign that said "exit" which was showing me I was very close. I am very very close to the top of the staircase, and I know for sure I am almost there. There are only two more doppelgangers that I need to confront in order to get back to my original self. I'm taking it one step at a time, and that is all I can do. I really just want all this to end, fast. I think the only thing I can do is think positive, and train my mind to keep going forward. There's no other way.
EDIT: I just got done playing the game Emily is Away today, and cried at the ending. I think its a sign from the universe telling me to cherish friendships, and how doors close behind us.
So when are you going to stop beating. This drum..... And start delabrately focusing on and writing on this forum what you really get excited about that could happen instead?
I already know it's going to happen, I just wish there was a way to manifest things faster in this universe. I think its torture how we have to wait years and years to get something, or to heal from something. I'm so so close to getting out of this retched hole I am in. When I get my very first true girlfriend and group of friends, I'm going to throw a party so huge, so big, so gigantic.
Hi Joshua! Nobody said it was easy :D And however anything can suddenly change ;D me too i have been waiting for a looong time but im aware that in this period i've just added more desires, much greater dreams & i have been given such a clarity about many things that i coul not even imagine before, just look at the positive side of your long journey!
Here's a truly helpful article that perfectly explains why we often feel we're going backwards in our spiritual journey & some quotes for you:
As long as you are feeling discomfort within anything, you're holding yourself in a vibration where all of the things that you have conjured, and all of the things that you have let the Universe know that you want, cannot flow to you. Abraham
Thank you. Yeah, I truly am going backwards in time. The creator is allowing me to see these doppelgangers, because he's showing me what I did wrong, and is helping me reverse all the bad stuff.
“The deeper you go into something negative, the longer it takes to climb out”
This is simply a thought – and its one that may or may not be working for you. So when you say: once you make the verdict on anything, the door has been sealed. The same is true here. You definitely are creating changes which is great and these are good signs, but just wanted to highlight the above.
Secondly sometimes we go through experiences that seem hard, but they are really valuable in the gift or perceptions they give us and so whilst I understand you feel that the past has been muddled somewhat, they have actually been preparing you to come to the realisations you have. However, time is a human invention and doesn’t really function the way we believe in the natural world, so with your goals, you are not limited in any way, shape or form and can actually get there in an instant. But you have to believe this is possible.
Yep, the main thing is climbing out of this dungeon. Every day that goes by is another step out, and that's the thing I need to remember.
Yeah, you're right. Even though the past was muddled, the creator is helping me re-write everything. This explains why I'm running into identical people of my past, and going through repeat events. The creator told me "the impossible has become possible" when he introduced me to time travel.
You know what, I think the reason why time cannot be manipulated is because it is a process. In order for things to be re-done, we need to go through that process to fix it, and it cannot be rushed. I remember the law of attraction stating that if you play pretend then it will eventually become reality. I'm thinking that if I pretended I had a social life and a girlfriend, then it will make the healing process easier, not that it would be so much as faster. I'm actually thinking about buying some punk clothes, grabbing some music, enrolling in college, and acting like a teenager again. Law of attraction has stated people don't look at your age if they like you, so I'm not worried about my age at all.
Well if you look at the word impossible - it actually says "I'm possible".
If you think time cannot be manipulated then you will create that. Likewise if you change your reference points to time, that will create changes too. Have you ever done something and lost complete track of the time because you were enjoying yourself so much. That's not magic, that's the power of your focus. The statement isn't actually a law of attraction statement but someones interpretation of it, and you are either making that real or surpassing it. It only has as much power as you give it.
You know most LOA teachers will teach you the fastest way to change anything is by first accepting where you are without judgment, and then being guided to take steps to creating the change you wish to create. So its about having no judgment about where you are at present (and thus offering no resistance) and then taking steps to create the life you want to create and becoming the person you want to be.
You're not going to believe what just happened to me today. I walked back on campus and all these people were walking up to me and giving me hugs. Two old classmates did it, and they said they wanted to see me again next semester. Not only that, my event coordinator hugged me and said the same thing. My two old classmates even talked to me like they knew me, and we held a conversation for a very long time.
You know what this all means? The doors are opening, and this is a very good sign I'm very close to getting a social life. I'm thinking the metaphor behind what just happened is that time and healing is a process. You CANNOT rush a process, because it requires steps to get where you want to get to. It's all about patience, and training your mind to focus not on the time itself, but the journey you're on.
Guys, the doors are opening!! After 12+ years, I am SO close!! The signs are already showing!!
WOW!! So happy to read this!!!! You're wise!!! Anyway i don't believe in a creator, religions are fake, spirituality is d real deal, you are the creator, we all are!
A song & some quotes 4 you:
You can't hurry love :D:
You will notice that those who speak most of prosperity, have it. Those who speak most of health, have it. Those who speak most of sickness, have it. Those who speak most of poverty, have it. It is Law. It can be no other way... The way you feel is your point of attraction, and so, the Law of Attraction is most understood when you see yourself as a magnet getting more and more of the way you feel. When you feel lonely, you attract more loneliness. When you feel poor, you attract more poverty. When you feel sick, you attract more sickness. When you feel unhappy, you attract more unhappiness. When you feel healthy and vital and alive and prosperous—you attract more of all of those things. Abraham