Ever since I was 18 I never had any friends, never hung out with anyone, did not date, had no family, and the list goes on. My entire life has been circulated behind a computer screen, and I'm going onto 33 years old at the moment. When I began studying spirituality this past 3 years, I finally found out what was causing it, and it was strong anti-social behaviors that were in the back of my head. I did not know about the law of attraction back in the day, and I would have stopped all this from happening before it was too late. What happened is that because I practiced these behaviors for so long, I ended up turning into a ghost where people just didn't notice me anymore. I could literally walk into any room, concert, or whatever, and this could go on for hours while people just laughed and talked in the background. To get a person to talk to me, or to go on a date was a miracle. I developed a ton of mental disorders including bi-polar and autism, and the reason why I was acting this way was due to a religious cult I was in.
Basically, this is how it works. The positive and negative sides in the universe work much like a rabbit hole. The deeper you go into something negative, the longer it takes to climb out. It's like a staircase, and every category in the universe has this staircase whether it is relationships, money, health etc. If you've practiced avoiding people for years, you will lose touch with social reality. If you've had negative vibes about health for years, you will develop more illnesses which could take longer to cure. The simplest way I can explain how it works is imagine you walking into a castle, and there are two staircases. Taking the staircase that goes down will put you further and further into the dungeon, and the further you go, the worse it gets with rats, water, bones....then blood....then dead people....then monsters, etc. That's how the sliding scale works. You can't say "Oh, I'm going to avoid people for 5 years, and then make friends when I feel like it". No, once you make the verdict on anything, the door has been sealed. You wouldn't go to a judge and file divorce against someone you were in love with.
The thing is that there's no way to manifest getting out of this hole faster. The creator has told me that I'm nearly there, and there is proof, because the ghosting thing has faded more and more over the past 2 years. Just recently, I had a group of people at a table talk to me, and ask me how I was doing. This has never happened before, and this is a very good sign I'm nearly out of the dungeon. I would say by the middle of 2019 is when this whole ghosting thing is going to end. How do I know this for sure? By seeing doppelgangers of people in my past whom I screwed over, turned down, etc.
For countless years I've sat in my room staring out the window. I'm just tired of the suffering, and it needs to end. Is there anyway to manifest the curing process faster, or is this going to be my fate for the next year and a half? I just wish the law of attraction had like a band-aid someone could put on in times like this. Sadly, I don't think there's a way around this. It's like putting cookies into the oven and then trying to figure out how to bake them in a few seconds when that technology is impossible. Looks like I'm stuck here until I fully get out. This sucks.....
I just bought a new diary. The slate has been wiped clean, and I'm starting over. So now, whenever I write in the new one, I have to make sure my vibrations are matching with the universe.
Bye bye time loops. You're history!
I was at a restaurant today, and I ordered a burger. When I got it, I accidentally put a ton of salt on it, because I misread the container. I wanted it replaced for a new one, and I was thinking "oh no, this waiter isn't going to like this." I told the waiter what happened, and asked for another one. He smiled and said "sure."
Another sign from above. Even if we screw up in life and ask for the wrong thing, we can always ask for it to be corrected.
Again, thank you all for your help and support. I'm going to keep this thread open.
lol, it has already happened. Instead of waiting and waiting, it's time to take action. Results are picking up really fast.