Why am I manifesting rejection from jobs and flats I desire and actually need? I always believed it to be easy to get jobs and housing, but my reality is showing different!! It's really bringing my self confidence down.
I've done this before and for me, it's been about having low self-esteem which always 'wins the day.' I remember in my last job, before it all went wrong, I was sitting there thinking, 'this is going well - what's the catch?' It started falling apart soon after. I think if you don't feel deserving or comfortable with success, then your thoughts will rear up to sabotage it....
Well I was so fed up the other day I said fuck jobs and flats I will just do 'x' job and travel abroad. Then I got an interview which I ended up being 45 minutes late to and didn't get it anyways(it was quite a distance so I take it as a sign it wasn't right for me anyways) and I have another one on Wednesday which is nearer. I suppose letting it go and not being bothered about jobs manifested these two interviews. Just the other day I was thinking about free online courses of specific subjects and I got an email about the exact free courses. I agree having low self esteem does sabotage all areas of your life, especially when you are in a constant state of anxiety, you are just waiting for something to go wrong. I am moving away from this state-I'm just trying to relax and not be bothered about silly things. Thanks for answering!