I've been working on changing my personality to one I see as the real me for the past month. It goes well, but from time to time, there come moments when I act as the exact opposite from that and it ruins my social life really bad. It's something that appears out of nowhere and it's like I'm not aware of things happening while in that state. It's like there are two persons in me, the Real Me and the Fake Me, sabotaging me, stopping the Real Me from living. I need the fake one dead, ASAP. Does anyone know anything that could be done in this situation?
Thanks in advance, best of luck, happy manifesting :)
That's the "fake one".
It seems to appear out of nowhere because you are not paying enough attention to how you feel. When you don’t feel good you act how you don’t want. When you notice you don’t feel good you focus on feeling better.
You’re creating a separation saying the fake you is bad and real you is good. But that empowers the unwanted version by giving it attention. Making peace with it and seeing the value in it releases your judgement and you allow yourself to be more the real you.
Why do I think I need to change? It's quite simple. I'm not who I used to be. And I was way more stable, happy, powerful, simply said, I used to be better version than I am now. Compared to that, who I was until I decided to transform myself recently, it was some weakened, cowardly, emotionally and mentally unstable me that doesn't love myself. I felt like an immature idiot. I have it all in my mind, the personality, the characteristics, everything, and I'm bringing it to life, but from time to time, there comes that other, inferior version and it's doing everything it can to affect me as much as possible. I know that that inferior is not me, the real me is not even the great one I used to be, it's even better than that and is constantly improving hugely, and that is what I'm transforming into (at least I'm intending to and doing whatever I can to achieve it). The inferior me would only ruin my life, and I'm not gonna allow that no matter what. That is why I desire to transform into who I really am. I don't say that the real me doesn't feel low emotions or that it's flawless, but the real me handles it masterfully. It may sound funny, but it's something like Dumbledore from Harry Potter, a person that's insanely powerful, is aware that he is, but that exact power is what makes him humble and stable, knowing who he is. As I said, I have the entire plan in my head, it's the transformation that has to take place now. The ironic thing is, it's all already inside of me, I should technically be able to just close my eyes, choose to be like that and when I open them, it's done. It's just different aspects of me that I choose to let living or not living, but who knows, maybe it will take time, maybe something will just klick inside of my head and it will really happen instantly, I know I have it all and it will have to come to life, sooner or later.
Gratitute for all that the Fake You is letting you experience & understand will bring the Real You back to life.