Alright, to make a long story short, I have been having an issue where I've been experiencing women manifesting from my past. There's a "misfire" during the attraction/escalation process, I end up being single again, and this process repeats. This has happened non-stop for about 3 years, and I am really starting to lose it. I don't know how much more I can take, and it needs to stop. I have spent countless hours day and night all these years doing research, and this continues to happen. I have literally tried everything I can think of, and I don't know what else to do. On top of all this, I haven't had any close friends to talk to all these years, only acquaintances. I am starting to lose hope.
I was on this forum a month ago and decided to take a break, but also decided to come back since I feel like I am out of options. I have been to two therapists already, and they don't know what the problem is, because this is a paranormal experience. I feel like I'm going to have to talk to someone face to face that has studied some form of spirituality for years that can break this cycle that is repeating. I'm getting ready to contact a local Rabbi in my area since I feel like that may be a stepping stone until I can get to someone in the United States that is very experienced with the law of attraction. I've already signed up with an Abraham Hicks Workshop in Chicago, but that's not until August.
The previous person on this forum had a very long talk with me for over a month, and told me to change my emotions and thoughts to get this to stop. I have already tried this and it's not working. I have tried shutting the spiritual door on this whole thing, and then it opens back up, because the emotions are way too strong. They kick in, a thought follows, and then BAM, a ghost/doppelganger spawns in front of me, and the process repeats. These women spawning in order over the years are happening in a time travel format. I just had another experience the other day, and I think this was the worst of the worst. This "ghost" that appeared was a woman that sent me an e-mail, and her photograph looked identical to a woman I knew 12 years ago, but appeared to look different in person. When I felt the "in love process" take place with butterflies followed by a tight knot in my stomach over 2 days, I cried on my bed for hours.
Whenever I pray to the creator for an answer, he only answers in riddles. He never gives me a clear cut and dry answer to get this whole process to stop. One of the last two clues he gave me over the past two months is when I saw the words "THINK" on a bus that appeared in front of me when I asked him how to stop this whole mess, and then another clue he said was "If you go through life believing you need a woman, this will forever be your chains and shackles". I'm getting to the point I will even spend money on plane tickets to another country to someone in the world that can help me with this. One way or another, I have to make this stop. I am determined, and do not want to give up. It's 3AM right now, and I'm trying to fall back asleep. Thank you.
p.s. and maybe you are too focused on making it happen and not on letting it happen. Stay away of any subject that causes you troubles, there are so many things you can appreciate and enjoy in d meanwhile, happiness magic & love are already around you****
The guy that I spoke to was named Graysen, and he is very knowledgeable about spirituality. He said my mind was creating this whole thing with these manifestations from the past along with this whole "time travel" thing, and he told me to "un-create" it. He broke me from the delusional world I was in, but now, I'm still experiencing manifestations related to the past. What is really annoying me are these misfires that are happening every time I try to move into a relationship. The REASON why this keeps happening is because my emotions are strongly connected to these women from the past which makes it hard to un-create this whole thing, and this is why these manifestations keep happening. The incident with the girl in the photograph happened after going into deep prayer, I just don't understand why the creator allowed ANOTHER f--king misfire. I think his clue about the chains and shackles means my mind is too obsessed about this whole thing, and it has to be dropped.
I'm heading down to my local health department to see if there's a psychotherapist that's experienced in paranormal phenomena. These normal therapists only study the stuff they are taught in schools, and universities do not teach spirituality.
You see, you are so obsessed with yourself and your problem that you just did not give a f*ck about what i wrote. I spent my time to write these things and i know alot about spirituality and loa but you told me about other people and other ideas. It's obvious that you dont have great relationships with girls, when you are with them do you speak about how wonderful your ex was and how pretty that girl over there is?? Lol sorry if i am brutally honest but i want to truly help you and you dont seem to allow my help. The Universe is continually speaking to us IN THIS MOMENT RIGHT HERE but if we have our mind somewhere else it wont help. That being said you can consider all this paranormal or just easy stuff that requires just practice and patience. Apparently you have some vibrations of your past so you need some more time, it's just this, dont overcomplicate things. Moreover if you see all this as a fun game or as an Adventure for your Soul things will flow much easier to you because you will be focused on your feelings and on your journey and not on d results -and d irony of all this is that you will also get d results you are looking for.
Life is speaking to us, giving us d answers we need also through flowers dogs birds, we dont need therapists. But you obviously are free to choose d path you prefer.
I DID read everything you wrote. I didn't mean to do that, I'm sorry. I have lost sleep for 3 days, and was getting ready to schedule an appointment with my doctor, because I was experiencing changes in my hormonal system. I even took the day off work. Please, bare with me here.
"Law of attraction can not work in d way we want if we are not totally healed inside and healing is a process, it's not an event. Are you healed?"
No, because this pattern keeps repeating.
"I mean, do you have still some doubts, fear, negative emotions inside?"
Not really. The only fear is the constant misfires that keep repeating.
"Moreover Always remember d Universe is your friend so any "unwanted" event you are experiencing is ONLY serving you to have more clarity about what you want."
They are not "unwanted" events. The universe brings me the person of the past that I'm thinking of, and that's what I'm looking for. It's the misfires I don't want. I can't even get a date with any of these women that manifest, because they either have a boyfriend, or it's something else that's preventing any escalation.
"That being said probably d things that are holding you back are 2: the belief that it is not working and your mistrust into d Universe."
When I prayed for the last person, I didn't have any doubt at all. There's no doubt in my mind during these manifestations, so I'm not sure why this continues to happen.
"Have you REALLY let go, are you TRULY relaxing trusting that d Universe is ALREADY showing you d perfect unfolding of your desires?"
YES!! I am truly trusting and believing in the universe, so I don't know why these manifestations continue to fail. With the last prayer, I gave it everything to my fullest extent with NO doubt in my mind, and it failed again.
"And sometimes we also have some unconscious desires, like for example manifesting this great forum with all d amazing free extraordinary and continuous support we have, so Gratitude for Everything is really d key.."
I think I may have to just let the whole thing go. This desire about manifesting women from the past has been non-stop for years, and it feels like it's getting worse. But like I said, I was VERY clear of what I wanted in the prayer I just did, and it DID NOT go through.
im sorry that you're losing sleep, i know it's exhausting. and when we are stressed all our other manifestations can not be so good, that's why relaxation is fundamental, do you relax enough?
the healing is an inside job, i think you have to heal the belief that life is working against you, start focusing more and more on what it IS working cause im sure there's something that is cool in your life. you're focusing too much on your problems, that's why they keep coming. d vibration of d solution is very different from d vibe of d problems and you're still practicing d vibe of your problems.
well every misfire you overcome is bringing you closer to what you want, you're getting clearer and clearer and also stronger and more focused, just focus on d positive side of d experience because there is always one.
i don't believe in prayer, it's just a tool to focus energy, there's no one else that will do d magic for you, sorry but YOU have to do the job, and maybe you need more time.
YES let all this women manifestation go & start enjoying more your life and im sure little by little you'll become a magnet of women, women are attracted by positive optimistic strong men - but being vulnerable & showing your feelings is also something we appreciate very very much.
do you travel?? cause traveling helps so much in getting emotionally independent.
pls be always kind and compassionate with yourself, take your time, please yourself and enjoy life, you're great also if you're not in a relationship - and you can also enjoy life ALOT also without being engaged.
here are some quotes 4 you my friend:
"im sorry that you're losing sleep, i know it's exhausting. and when we are stressed all our other manifestations can not be so good, that's why relaxation is fundamental, do you relax enough?"
No. I have noticed that almost every single day that has gone by for the past 3 years, I have obsessed on and off about women in the past or just women in general. Based on this, this is a warning sign that it's time to stop.
"the healing is an inside job, i think you have to heal the belief that life is working against you, start focusing more and more on what it IS working cause im sure there's something that is cool in your life. you're focusing too much on your problems, that's why they keep coming. d vibration of d solution is very different from d vibe of d problems and you're still practicing d vibe of your problems."
This does makes sense, because when these manifestations take place, they are coming in the form of a problem even though there's positive thinking associated with it. There are a lot of cool things in my life, and I've noticed that when I focus on other things going on, this whole thing begins to disappear. I think this may all just be resistance in general, and not "going with the flow" and acting like a normal person. The universe even warned me that if I did not stop doing this, that my sanity was going to go.
"well every misfire you overcome is bringing you closer to what you want, you're getting clearer and clearer and also stronger and more focused, just focus on d positive side of d experience because there is always one."
You're right!! This whole time travel thing that was going on is just a script that has been playing in my head. The girl that I just recently met over e-mail looked nearly identical to the girl from 12 years ago, which is why I felt like I was going to pass out when I went to meet her for coffee. Everything I have done and worked hard for was coming up to this point, which is why severe tension was building. It's like spending years preparing for the Olympics, and when that day comes, you start feeling severe anxiety and nervousness.
Here's a picture of the girl. She looks about 90% to the one from the past. When I saw this after the prayer, I began going through all this phenomena of butterflies in stomach, etc.
And then I saw, this. This was when I felt the tight knot in my stomach, and the feeling of failure. The new picture I found didn't look anything like the first one, because she changed her appearance over 9 months. This was the updated one from her Twitter account.
"i don't believe in prayer, it's just a tool to focus energy, there's no one else that will do d magic for you, sorry but YOU have to do the job, and maybe you need more time."
Because a prayer is extremely powerful. I rarely do prayers, and when I do, the universe knows I'm being very serious.
"YES let all this women manifestation go & start enjoying more your life and im sure little by little you'll become a magnet of women, women are attracted by positive optimistic strong men - but being vulnerable & showing your feelings is also something we appreciate very very much."
Yes, it's time to put this whole thing to rest. These women that are manifesting aren't even the actual ones from long ago, they are just imitations and carbon copies. After we met for coffee, the universe even showed me why this was happening. He said my mind was too focused on the past. This explains why I felt butterflies during the first picture, and then a knot on the second.
"do you travel?? cause traveling helps so much in getting emotionally independent."
I'm thinking about it, because it would help ease my mind.
"pls be always kind and compassionate with yourself, take your time, please yourself and enjoy life, you're great also if you're not in a relationship - and you can also enjoy life ALOT also without being engaged."
ANYTHING that takes over a person's mind is very bad. This incident has become so severe that it's like a virus that has taken over my mind. It's time to close the door on this whole thing.
There's no other way out other than to EXIT.
Yeah, I think it's resistance that is causing this whole thing. Being that the universe told me this was a form of idolatry, the answer has already been given.....
R.I.P. Jennifer. I did everything in my power to bring you back, and it's not working, I'm sorry.
If you're still out there, I hope you're reading this. Everything in this universe has law and order. We have one moon, one sun, two genders, etc. I understand what you mean by believing anything is possible, but you have to understand whatever we do has to be in harmony with the natural world.
When I manifest women based on women from the past, do you know what the universe is giving me? Memories, and that's all it is. Notice how the recent woman in the photographs is the same person, and my infatuation with her disappeared on the sole fact that she did not resemble the same memory in the 2nd picture. Guess what? The tattoo on her left arm was a temporary one, and a woman can always grow her hair back. If I had not been so obsessed about this, there wouldn't have been a misfire, because it was the same exact woman the whole time. I know what the universe is trying to show me, and the answer is obviously clear this is nothing but idolatry and obsession.
You know what this all is? It is selfishness. First off, we cannot manifest an original person we once knew long ago to come back to us, and we can only manifest people that have similar resemblances. How do I know this? It is law and order. Second, it is very selfish to attract a person to play as a puppet to serve a desire of another person from long ago. Like you said, time loops/travel don't exist in the natural world.
The universe/creator is allowing all these misfires, because he's showing me that I am too hung up on memories, and too hung up on the past. All these law of attraction teachings state we get what we ask for, and I'm just going to say this....
There is a reason why this is happening. When I get these women from the past to manifest, I'm putting my entire heart into it, so there should be NO reason all of them have ended up in misfires with no connection. This is more than vibrations, or some crazy theory about X, Y, and Z. This is a life lesson. If I walk into a restaurant to order a hamburger that's no longer on the menu and the waiter brings back a photograph instead of the actual burger, then I know something is wrong.
YES EXACTLY. Stop trying to manifest something you've already accumulated too much negative momentum about. Distract yourself with ANYTHING and when you least expect it your perfect full love manifestation will be before your eyes :))) Here are 2 quotes for you, please think about them, the first one may nit be d most romantic quote but it's soooo liberating, don't you think so??: