I'm in a weird mental state at the moment. Not because life is hard for me at the moment, but because everything is going great! Sounds silly and probably irratating to those who are genuinely struggling at the moment. But when everything is going OK and according to plan, for some reason I've to go and sabotage myself and my eating problem gets worse and my head is so wishy washy in a job I once loved and excelled in.
This has made me reaslise that stuggle can be a good thing- and I know why struggle exists- for us to overcome our obstacles!!! My most exhilarating time in my life has when I've had no home in a foreign country, no job, little money etc, and everything worked out amazingly in the end because I'd depended on faith alone for everything to work out.
So now my life is going fine... and therefore my eating problem gets worse in order for me to have a big obstacle to over come! If I didnt have this problem, I may not love my body and be thankful of nurturing food as much as I will when I am victorius... :-)