I listen to Abraham Hicks every morning and night. I am grasping some concepts, but I don't know that I am utilizing them on a vibrational level. Why is it so difficult for me to ignore WHAT IS? I just cant help but see that WHAT IS is everything I feared for last September. Should I let it go and move on? I try to do things to feel better and look forward, but my displeasure with what is out weights my desire to move on. I am obsessed with what is and I am trying to seek comfort in it, but its just so ICKY!
I don't know if I should just go through what is and get to the other side, or try to fight off with affirmations that counter act it. I've lost four unhealthy relationships in the past two weeks and I'm happy about this because I'm anticipating that the Universe is going to reveal to me something that will rock my world! Maybe I can find comfort in that.
My main issue is this --- I just can't believe things unfolded so TERRIBLY! How could this have happened? My potential relationship with my ex-lover is OVER! He broke up with the girl he bailed on me for --- FOR A TOTALLY NEW GIRL 2 WEEKS AFTER! So I'm history! I feel shocked! I imagined he would come running back to me, but WHAT IS is that he's long gone! I mustered up the courage to delete him from all social media but, this reality is so sucking!
Believe me, Im trying to stay positive and not feel these things, but I DO! And I don't know what to do!
"I don't know if I should just go through what is and get to the other side, or try to fight off with affirmations that counter act it."
It may seem counterintuitive to purge all the nastiness that's collected within you, while you're trying to better yourself and your life with happier thoughts and practicing gratitude, right? I feel you - I think the healthy thing to do is, if you can, go somewhere alone, and really just try to cry. You said "I'm trying to stay positive and not feel these things" - ah, but you should :) It helps you, even if it really sucks. Which it does. But it's part of the process. It helps to cry, anyway, and you're releasing toxins, and when you're done crying (by the way, really do try to get it all out for a better effect/outcome), your body releases a feel good chemical.
You can initiate the new chapter by thinking, "This is a natural course... I will detox myself of the past. Moving on." Onward and upward! I hope I helped somewhat :)
If and when your fears manifest, I find the best way to heal the situation is to first give thanks for it (and what it's showing you) and then start to affirm that IT'S ALL TURNING OUT IN A GLORIOUS WAY. That creates a process of things turning out gloriously, and changing for you, rather than staying as the '-what is' reality.