Every time I let him go, I’ll spend a few days feeling lighter, and then he’ll just re-capture my mind and thoughts and I’ll just miss him so much I can hardly breath and this all will just drive me insane until I reach out to him and make a fool of myself. Why Why WHY oh why??????
A while ago I genuinely thought I got over him. I thought I finally realized at my core that he was a coward and just a very ordinary person who probably never really fell for me (like I thought) and probably doesn’t even miss me ever. I really thought this was it. That I’m finally over him.
And then here I am, this close to sending him a text. God I really don’t want to feel like a complete idiot all over again. God I hate this! Aaaarrgghhh
You do know that he doesn’t control your mind ( ref: re- capture my mind )
But it is your mind that controls him.
I get what you’re saying, on an intellectual level. It’s just so exhausting.. to go through this cycle of letting go and then missing him this intensely.. over and over again. Feeling this strongly about someone who probably is clueless and emotionless about me is just... I’m just so tired
Falling in love with myself.. heh (sad smile). That’s something I simply can’t seem to master. Not even close and it’s been years of trying. Unfortunately. Heh
Sorry about sounding like such a...
i just.. am in a low space right now i guess. Sorry
don't worry, you're in good company, almost all people are not in love with themselves, that's why there are failed relationships just everywhere. anyway if nobody taught us an unconditional love for ourselves we can always learn it. im loving the episodes of "Dating yourself first" by the magical coach Amanda Marit, they are short and super deep & powerful, here is the wonderful last one (you can find the other ones on her instagram):
hugs and blessings
Thanks a lot Dorothy
No one can manifest in another's experience. That is manifesting 101. Try Abe videos in YouTube.
It is not your fault. We have been misguided for a very long time. It’s alright. You can go back to what you truly are.
I have done the same mistakes as you when I was younger and unaware of my true worth. But as I started to respect and value myself more things started to get beautiful on the outside.
Distance yourself from romantic comedies . Or any stupid portrayal of love and romance. Or any person who lives for drama.
Dont make LOA about getting that guy or getting back your ex. If you stay the same person, the guy might leave someday or the relationship might get miserable down the years.Make it about you, your spiritual advancement. Trust me, you won’t regret it. It takes time and energy but it’s totally worth it.
You got this girl B)
Wonderful words. Thanks so much Infinity
Enjoy the miracle of life & you will experience the miracle of love.