Apparently my vibes have been a total mess. I'm getting beaten up severely by the universe. I keep having 10 weird issues at once. A major company may have stolen my art and I may have to SUE them for TONS of money! 2, now I have an ear infection, the first in 35 years?3. I lost a job application in progress that was 94% complete online, and I'm begging the company to find it on their server and just submit it as is and I will physically hand them the last list of 10 housing history(I'm PISSED I have to provide to get my OLD JOB BACK!). I'm just very sick and I want to be left alone and I did everything I could to make things as easy as I could to finish my application, but I am SCREWED, now if the district IT person cannot FIND it. I lost at least 1 important old address out of LOST address book TOO!
I just want things to CALM THE HECK DOWN. I am tired of DRAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa and problems!
Too sick physically to even DEAL with all of these things!
change the story you're telling yourself and your reality will change like magic. sending you some positive vibes & quotes:
Within the seed of your desire is everything necessary for it to blossom to fulfillment. And Law of Attraction is the engine that does the work. Your work is just to give it a fertile growing place in order to expand.
I wonder how much your ADHD has to do with all this. A few years ago, when I first found out I had it, I read some things that really amazed me. It was unbelievable to me how much the symptoms had permeated all aspects of my life. For one thing, I remember a quote that people with ADHD "live from crisis to crisis". Also, I took a quiz on ADHD the one time and one of the questions was, "Are you exhausted from the struggle, but also addicted to the struggle?"
I'm not trying to say in any way that any of this is your fault! You don't want to live this way! No more than my problems are my fault, in a conscious sense. But there are some thought patterns that people like us have that could be affecting what you bring into your life.
For one thing, people with ADHD are prone to negative thinking. And we CATASTROPHIZE. ('Im not sure of the spelling.) I'm not saying that these things aren't really happening to you or that they aren't as bad as you say. I absolutely believe things can be that bad! And all at once, too! That's just one definition of catastrophizing. I'm talking about the other aspect----always expecting things to go wrong!!! Making a mountain out of a molehill, as the saying goes. Or worrying about things that don't happen, but something else does, because of the negative energy you're putting out expecting the worst. And the thing is, after you've already been through a lot of trauma ,like you have, it seems to make sense to expect the worst case scenerio because that's what's always happened before. So you have to train yourself to not automatically expect it. I still do it. I had some issues with my debit card and a mail-order company a few months ago. They told me it was nothing to worry about and they'd take care of it. So did the bank. But I still expected major disaster. I didn't expect the money to be in there when the landlord cashed the rent check, and I worried for nothing. I try to consciously think positively, but still I catch myself in the moment just automatically expecting the worst. I was even really irritable on the phone with customer service. I told the woman, "I don't believe you when you tell me there's nothing to worry about. I don't believe you when you tell me your company will fix it." I really said that to her! And it turned out, there wasn't anything to worry about at all. It was promptly fixed.
Also, I'll bet you have a very active imagination. That could be a positive trait, but for people with ADHD, who tend to have pessimistic mindsets, it can be an obstacle. Once you imagine something going wrong, you probably get completely lost in a day-nightmare. It probably becomes very vivid and real to you, you get all caught up in it like it's really happening, and you experience a lot of fear and distress just thinking about what could go wrong, and then you are putting that out into the Universe.
One of the things with ADHD is that adrenaline can charge up the underactive prefrontal cortex. So I am wondering if it's possible that maybe, without realizing it, you're getting yourself worked up about things to get your adrenaline pumping to fight off the mental fatigue that comes with ADHD. And then getting worked up only makes them worse. Not doing it on purpose, just kind of subconsciously self-medicating.
Think about all the times that you worried about something that DIDN'T HAPPEN. And then think about all the times that something DID HAPPEN, but it wasn't the thing you were worried about! It was something completely different that wasn't even on your radar screen at the time. All of the unnecessary worrying about the thing that didn't happen robbed you of energy and focus and peace of mind to deal with what really happened. By the time the real problem popped up, you were worn out from catastrophizing about the imaginary problem. Another thing is, the things you worry about happening that don't happen may be causing the negative emotions that are bringing all of the real problems to you.
I mean, the ear infection is a real problem that needs to be taken care of. But then you say that a major company MAY have stolen your art and you MAY have to sue them! But you don't know for sure yet. So why not rest up and let your infection heal. Give yourself a break. When you find yourself thinking about all the BAD things that could happen, shift your imagination to something unexpectedly good happening! Let your imagination get carried away even if it isn't something you think will really happen, just the good emotions you'll feel will be much more likely to bring something good into your life.