I've got a history of creating threads which is about how I seem to have no luck with womem in anyway or even friendship wise.
Yes I believe I am spiritually tested which is testing my compassion, strength, will.
However it is painful what I've endured and having no women in my life for years and not being able to have a friendship for 10 years.
I'm almost begging everyday why and what did I have to do which I already haven't?
The answer is, when you put more attention upon what you desire, rather than what is actually happening.
Everyday for many years I always think of the wanted.
When would you like to stop being "tested"?