This may sound a little groggy as I try to explain this thought - I'm not quite fully awake after falling asleep on the couch tonight.
For the past couple of months I've been on a journey of discovery. I've felt, not quite a failure, but at least disappointed in myself that I feel a lack of passion for anything in my life. I'd caught the last 15 minutes of Oprah this afternoon (my mom called me telling me to watch this show) about Marcus Buckingham & his online course "Take control of your career and your life". *The show is on in another half-hour and I'll watch it all then.
The women were commenting on how his course transformed their careers. And I felt sad that I've never had a desire for a career. I'm not counting the brief moments when I was in grade 7/8 when I thought maybe I wanted to be a vet or an astronomer as those thoughts aren't a desire now.
I caught Oprah making a comment that I'd heard her say a couple of times now - ask the universe what it wants you to do/be of service. I thought I had asked, but maybe without any desire/passion to really hear an answer (law of attraction at work). Tonight after the nap I checked my emails and the thought came to me to visit VenusFactor.com. I signed on and was drawn to the lesson - Letting go of Fear. Reading the short PDF I realised that there is an underlying fear here that whatever the universe may want me to do may require me moving away from my small hometown & family here in northern Canada ( I don't like big noisy cities). This fear is interfering with me finding out what my desire/passion could be. Somehow I have to let go of that fear, and of trying to figure out the how and let the universe take care of that problem.
I need to sit down and listen to the rest of my copy of the Sedona Method and learn to let go...