I had a conversation with another PI member today, and he suggested that I let people know who I am. Funny thing is, I used to do that. The purpose of my PI blog was for just that... to document the changes that have taken place in my life after being introduced to things like "The Secret"
, The Law of Attraction, Napoleon Hill, Eckhart Tolle, Wallace Wattles, Wayne Dyer, Jack Canfield, Joe Vitale
, Bob Proctor
, John Assaraff, Mike Doole
y, James Ray and so many, many others. so I am beginning again to open myself up to you all.
I am writing a book with my family and in the process I have discovered many things about myself that I knew, but never spent anytime thinking about. I have gotten to know myself better and I like me. I know that is no great revelation to some, but to me...it is so much more than you could ever know.
I went many years after my mother passed away, lamenting about how she never told me she loved me... and yet, I have recently found the messages she left me, which were clearly symbols of her love for me. I spent many years lamenting about how I was raised by an abusive alcoholic and yet again, I have found the gifts that my father left me in these two sentences. "Be a Leader Not a Follower" and "It's all in your head." The beauty of the second one is that it was meant to be negative, but I will never again see it that way. I found something that my father left me that is helping to change my life. So finding time for personal reflection is now a major part of my life and some may say...what a waste of time, but the truth about my life, and who I really am, is never a waste to me, and I hope everyone will take the time to get to know themselves better than they ever have before.
I had a conversation yesterday day with my youngest son, who has issues with alcohol. During the conversation I said to him, "most people are afraid of what is in their head, but if they took the time to quiet their mind, and listen, they would hear what they need to know about themselves, to change their circumstances, and change their lives." I got a glimmer of "right on, Mom" and I saw in him, what he can't see in himself, and I told him that. I told him that no matter what he did or who he became I would never change how I felt about him, and it was nice to hear him say, "I know that, Mom, and sometimes that is what keeps me going." Parents know their children...simply that. When my father said the things he did to me, he probably had no idea how important they were to me, but I know and I love that my own children know how much I love them and how important they are to my life. I want them to know what beautiful people they are and how much they add to the world. I love to see myself through their eyes, it makes me so proud of myself and also of them.