Hello everyone :)
I have been working on visualization and being positive as well as trying to clear doubt from my thoughts. It is very hard to do sometimes though. For example, I visualized checks in the mail and low and behold I got a check in the mail the other day for something I had forgotten I even did! A couple days later I was laying in bed asking myself, why wasn't the check bigger? Why did I do all this visualization for if I was only going to get a $27.00 check? I quickly tried to put it out of my mind, but the doubt and negative thoughts kept creeping back in.
And today, I was dropping my son off at work (we work in at the same restaurant) and the girls were sitting there scratching lottery tickets. I only had $2.80 in my pocket and we were out of milk. So they asked if I wanted to go in on tickets and I said no. Because I knew I had to buy milk and if we didn't win, how would I do that? Well they scratched their tickets and won $125.00! I would have shared in that if I had only put in my $2.00! So here is where the jealousy comes in and I left feeling jealous of them sitting there smiling and being happy. I know $125.00 isn't much to some people, but I have four kids and a husband who is out of work, so a share of $125.00 would be great. I drove home frustrated and feeling jealous. I tried to fee happy for them and to just let it go, but that's just so hard to do sometimes.
I am a very happy person most times. I don't dwell on bad things and I always try to see the positive in everything. My friends say that they like being around me because I always can cheer them up and I like to be funny and get everyone in a good mood. So, with this said, you'd think I should be able to kick any negativity in the butt right? :)
How do you deal with these negative emotions and thoughts when they creep into your mind?