I am grateful to have employment. It is not my dream career though. I went into nursing because my mum is a nurse, and I like to help. I wanted to provide HOLISTIC care as a nurse. Its mentioned in nursing school but in the real world its not really provided in hospitals. I got good grades for Complementary Alternative Medicine class. The idea I could work in a hospital, light up incense, aromatherapy, drove my imagination wild. However only to find out in reality there are no alternative hospitals in Australia. I heard there is one in China and somewhere in USA??? A hospital that does not give out medication, that would be awesome.
I have been a nurse officially for 8 years. I feel my soul screaming to get out of it. Not so much as a Community Nurse because it is hard but its not as hard as it is in the hospitals. I commend the nurses who have been in it for such a long time, even my mum to this day who I would love to see retire from nursing and enjoy her life. Some people are really made to be nurses, but I feel if only I took a while in 2001 after 911 events to sit and ponder my life and really consider what would have been best for me.
If I could work in these following areas before I win the lottery jackpot, I would love to work with animals, and or land conservation, and or Park Manager of a Caravan Park, and or make cakes like the tv show ACE OF CAKES, and or just be creative in block printing or screen printing (which I know is more of a hobby).
I spoke with my partner last night about my time as a nurse wanting to get out and he said to me are you doing anything that could lead to that direction. I said No, only my thoughts. He advised me well you need to look into these areas. He was right, I haven't done any action. All my action is visualising. So I am going to look very hard in my career path and seek guidance. I do appreciate nursing but it really isn't my calling, and when I feel resistance in my gut, I find it hard to go with the flow.
I want to find my passion as though going to work isn't hard, I know there is a quote out there about what I mean but I cannot find it right now. Pursue what interests you :D I am still not giving up on winning lottery :D