Today I am making the decision to let go of resentment. I will forgive him, and forget him.
I've chosen to stay in a toxic mindset of a victim for quite a while, getting out for a breather as I try and move forward but diving back in when I listen to myself or those around me making anger, resentment, and whatever sick emotions that put me at dis-ease as the way to go about this. They mean well and I am grateful for the friends I have that have listened to me when I was down and shared the ups when I recieved those.
This journey for me is about 100 days of, regardless how my "forebemoaned moans" seem to be heading, create a positive and healthy attitude that drives me to thrive to the best I can and accomplish everything I seek. getting out of the tendency in my head and putting some new GOOD self talk in its place!
April is the last month of this semester, It CAN be fun. The bright side includes the work coming together and to an end where I can exhibit and gain new portfolio items to be proud of that can open more doors. I have an exciting summer ahead, with no expectations of events. I'm open to all the great things that will come with my travels.
I'm finally now living in the city of my dreams and have moved all the way across the world to New York City, now working and studying as a designer! It IS exciting and it's alot to be grateful for.
I've finally found a diet and workout system that suits my lifestyle, and as someone who is very into being at my best shape possible always this is something I am very grateful for. I am very close to my weight loss goal and toning up is well on its way. I love the strength i've built, the passion I have for dance which I also use for fitness purposes.
I'm very blessed and lucky to be able to be at a point where I can be completely honest with my mother and have such a close relationship with her even though I currently live on the other side of the world. We remain close in spirit and love.
I'm practicing more mindfulness in terms of 'cleaning' , and will end Day 1 with the Ho'oponopono cleaning mantra: I love you, I'm sorry, PLease forgive me, Thank You.