Today I had a job interview and when I came home I was in tears. I found the interviewers had strange questions and then I decided not to look forward on this job because I would never get it. Then I got THE phonecall. They didn't want to hire me right now as an employee but they would like to hire me as a freelance for the next few months! They wanted to know if they perhaps could 'get better' (they won't, I'm sorry it's true) and advertise for the job and ask me to participate again, but they wanted to hire me in the meantime with my company. I DID NOT EXPECT THIS AT ALL!!!
I thought they didn't like me because I don't like myself so much during job interviews.
But they thought the interview was very positive. I didn't think that. Why is that? Why do I see it so much different than it 'is'? Do we know what the truth is?
Pfff... I get so tired of this, asking myself why people react negatively or positively. How do you all attract GREAT THINGS and WHY don't I see WHERE I HAVE TO GO?
WHAT IS MY PATH?
Is it to be an entrepreneur (and not a full time employee...)?
Is it to be successful?
Is it to earn hundreds of thousands of euros? Even millions?
Is it to live in a wonderful house with a garden?
And how do I reach this? HOW??? Does anybody get answers?
I often think: smile and let go. Just smile and let go.
I hope this will work for me.
Smile and let go.