Haven't been around in a long time

My lap top died and I lost all my favorites. I bought a new one but since then I have not been back here. Reason? No idea. I always enjoyed reading peoples' blogs and it made me happy to see how lots of other souls are finding their way and how so many people had great wisdom they wanted to share with the rest of us. So why didn't I come back then?

Maybe it's because once again, I lost my balance. I lost it for a while and it seemed like my life once again was all about work and making other people happy. Amazing how easy it is to fall back into that trap. It's amazing how easy it is to forget all about me and how hard it is to change the way I think when all my life I've been thought to be kind and consider other peoples' needs. Yeah, and I have done that for the past 36 years. I have done exactly that. I made sure that I always did things for others to make life easier for them. And me? Well, I was gonna get to "my needs" after I am done with other's, I thought. It's only now I realized that that will never happen cause there will be new people and more people in my life and I will never be done with "them". 

So...I guess what I'm trying to say is - I need to think of myself just like I think about those other people. I am just as important, aren't I? So it's time to find the balance and learn not to feel "selfish" when I take 10 minutes for myself just to sit there and be quite, to read a book.....It's not selfish to say - "No." from time to time.