Every time I come here I find something I need. I am so happy to share and receive insight with like minded people. Whether you are a step behind or a step ahead, we are on the same path. It's a joy to look back and see where I've been and to peak ahead and hear about where I'm going. And it's wonderful to celebrate with others who are standing right where I am NOW:)
As the alternate jury member I was dismissed from the trial I've been attending every day as deliberations started. As I was leaving the court house I took a couple of minutes to focus on unconditional love and healing towards everyone involved in the case. When I left my house to meet a friend this evening I almost ran smack dab into one of the involved parties. It took a lot for me to walk by without making eye contact or saying something. I have a strong feeling our paths will cross again soon.
The friend I was going to meet has been put on some antidepressants. He's so mean and angry now. The 2nd day he was on them he yelled at me. I know it's not his fault. I've been on similar medications. My first instinct was to tell him to throw them away but it's his choice not mine. He's been on them for 5 days and I'm not sure how much longer I will be able to help him out. I'm not mad at him but I am very uncomfortable with being yelled at and it's no fun to hang out with someone who is so unhappy. Before he started these pills when he was sad I shared my happy and it was working. He was getting happier every day. Now my happy annoys him and I'm having to work very hard to find it when I'm around him.