I believe we have love and looking for it only brings more contrast and a false perception of what it is and feels like. To say and have the vibration of "I want love" is affirming that you are without? Is it? Is want a word affirming lack? What do you think?
A friend shared with me his perspective on the subject...and said that one cannot find love if you don't have it already; and that is loving yourself to have it already. You have none, no love, then you have none to give if you do not realize and acknowledge it in yourself. Hmm.
I wondered what is not love? If the universe is perfect then all is perfect in harmony with what is fit, right? Like attracts like, right? Evil? Bad & good? Is love the universe giving us what we ask for with the vibe we offer? I think so.
However, I feel we will not "feel" love until we know it is within but we do not have to be in that state of a high feeling of love to have love to give.. I think it is always in us and given even when we do not recognize it. I feel a smile is giving love; telling a joke; helping someone with advice; being an ear. Caring in any way for someone's best interest is love; also sharing in an experience and participation no matter what the activity may be.
Our perception from religious dogma and ideas, principles, brainwashing etc. shape our limited outlook on what our experiences actually are and what we can conclude and learn from them. I find my emotions can be a veil also over me seeing my own behavior and others' interaction with me and what it all means.
I find that when we have an intense emotion, known as pain, that contrast or extreme joy... it is when we finally really seek and change our perspective, or are more open minded to understanding our dilemma and looking unprejudiced at what is happening. It has been my experience after all.
So with that said, for me, I now bring my awareness to identify with love wherever I find it and I appreciate all kindness and diversity of love manifested in my experiences. I believe that the feeling I am eager to experience in the way that I desire to that "love feeling" will come from the inside out. It will come with ease. It will come with awareness of myself and accepting me the way I am and desire to be; without thinking I should "be" for someone else. Balance of my feelings, feeling whole, confident and full of me! Instead of identifying with what does not give me a good feeling I look for what does without offering that vibration of dislike but just a refocus and appreciation for all the variety in nature. It is a concept that I am still adjusting to. Like riding a bike. I'm pedaling now and picking up speed :).
I look forward to discussing these points of interest with anyone who finds them interesting and may have something to add or share about the topic of love. Enjoy the moment. Thank you for reading! :)