Since last Monday, he contacted me, I was not getting back to a high vibration level. I tried and it was hard. I can be in peace and calm, the normal level of vibration, but it was becoming so hard to be in strong vibration level.
Now I think I am easily bothered by him while I am using LOA. So it is even getting worse, falling out of vortex, even when I realized this, I cannot do much about that.
So I decide completely cutting off contact. NO CONTACT. I need this to work on myself, and be extremely happy and withdraw from reality for a while.
This feeling feels really bad now. I am surrounded by fear and worry to think of a life without him. It's making me scared to think about anything 3 months farer from now. He said it was clear this is done for us. To some point, I agree and I think it is an end to that old toxic relationship. So when we start, we can really start a new one.
But meanwhile, I am doubting where it goes. I hope the universe guide me the way.