There's a book with the powerfully compelling title, Where Is God When It Hurts?
I asked that question repeatedly when, as a deeply committed Christian, I was diagnosed with Stage 4-b cancer. I couldn't figure out where I'd gone wrong, and I couldn't figure out why God would allow such an experience to befall me.
I felt angry, abandoned, perplexed. "Yo, God, over here! I know you're busy managing the Universe and such, but one of your servants could use a little help, if it's not too much trouble!"
The more angry and sarcastic I became, the farther away my "Father" seemed to be. Finally, I decided that maybe I was overlooking something crucial. Maybe it wasn't that God had abandoned me; maybe it was just that I wasn't somehow in a receiving mode of his blessings.
I began to read every self-help book in the public library, and I came across Kenneth Pelletier's Mind as Healer, Mind as Slayer.
That book -- the mere title of that book -- changed the direction of my life. Maybe the key to getting well and thriving was to significantly change my habits of thought. Bingo.
Now, 27 years later, I'm so glad that I drew that conclusion from my experience. And I'd like to reveal where I think God is when we're hurting: He's not there.
He can't be there. He is ever joyful Source energy. He is our ever joyful Inner Being. And God is not in vibrational proximity to suffering.
That sounds stark, I know. At one time, I took comfort in believing that God was with me in suffering, even when, with perplexity, I couldn't feel his presence. But now I believe I know why darkness felt so, well, DARK. God -- Source, All-That-Is, Inner Being -- couldn't possibly share suffering with me, for there is simply too much vibrational variance.
This Universe, I've come to believe, is nothing if not vibrationally-based. Like attracts like to the farthest specks of stardust in the cosmos. When I'm focusing on things that bring me upset, remorse, resentment, guilt, sorrow, etc., my ever joyful Inner Being/Source simply doesn't go there.
So...where IS that joyful Source of mine when I'm in pain? Well, it's having the time of its life, for Pete's sake! It's riding the rockets of desires I've launched to be healthy and happy as a natural result of the pain I've felt. Whether I choose better-feeling thoughts and ever ride those rockets, too, Source is enjoying the heck out of the expanded version of me. I can wallow in misery and self-pity if I want, or I can join Source and that expanded, far happier version of myself. The choice is mine.
No matter where I am, no matter what is the status of my health, my relationships, my finances, my career, I CAN get to where I want to go. In fact, I've placed everything I've ever wanted into a vibrational escrow account, as Abraham terms it, just waiting for me to GET UP TO SPEED WITH ME -- with the expanded version of myself that life (including the suffering) has caused me to become. Then I have access to all the wonders in that escrow account!
Misery loves company, but I'll never have the company of God in my misery. My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to reach for one better-feeling thought after another... after another ...after another... until I sufficiently raise my vibration that I can be in a good feeling space. It is there that I'll manifest my deepest and most delicious desires.
It is there that I'll happily hobnob with God.