It's amazing--now that I've had about two hours to process all these powerful emotions I'm feeling, I'm seeing where the pitfalls are in the choices we make about what to believe and what not to believe.
I see how I could have and did make the wrong decisions in the past, choosing fear, choosing "naw, something that good could never happen to me" over "the Universe, my Goddess, is infinitely kind and loving and wants me to be happy beyond all measure."
I see how I could stray down the wrong path, asking myself questions about what just happened that could lead me to negative thoughts, and I see the right path, which takes an incredible amount of courage to take but is there nonetheless, beckoning to me.
I see how gradually, I had built up my faith in the Universe, attracting and achieving small things, and how now, I have no choice but to absolutely acknowledge the incredible power the Universe has. I mean, of all things--how could I have been pushed there to go to that place, sit in that very chair, at that very window, right at the correct time to see her walk by? I don't know her schedule--in fact, I've never known her schedule because it's always fluctuating as she schedules her own clients.
And for her to walk right by, when she could have walked four other directions...
The Universe is indeed conspiring on my behalf, and it alternately scares the crap outta me and fills me with joy. This is the Universe asking me to step up to the next level, and this time, I absolutely have to say yes, because I've seen what the alternative is and can't go down that road ever again. This time, courage doesn't matter--it's down to straight common sense. If I want things to change, I've got to do things differently than ever before.
And so I am.
Thanks for being there, listening silently and letting me work out these thoughts and construct new, powerful beliefs. More to come as more comes along...