ok she left me it was 4 years ago we were in high school and we had know each other since grade 6 and she fell for me two years before we started dating I had a temper back then but since I've gotten over it there also lots of high school drama and she knows i have and she. me and her are best friends side note she still hugs me before she leaves even know I do have to remind her sometimes. We cuddle every now and then. She comes to me with all her problems came to me for a comforting hug after her last break up. last time we were at a bar we were playing pool after a few drinks she poked me in the butt with a pool cue then not too long after that she cuddled with me. Still loves to tease me and mess up my hair after one of the hugs she said this “Here I know you miss this” me “Don’t deny it you miss you this too” her “Yeah I do” she also touched my leg once. she says none of this side note stuff means anything but i hope it does and i have a hard time believing her. We are 20 and 21 now. Also I was carrying her bag and a few other nice things which I have told I will stop doing and I think a good start for me getting her back would be for to show her that I haven't changed my mind about stopping doing these nice things for her by when she test me to see if I have I will hold my ground and show her that I haven't changed my mind.
Thank you scott for the massage and friend request. As I moved to England,10 years ago, I met my partner. He was for me my partner my friend my family, just he filld every body's place in my life. I didnt even try to find a friend. I had him and that was enough. He left 2 months ago and 2 days ago, when I called him, he said he doesn't have any intention to come back at all. Now I feel lost. Every night I wake up scared and panicked. I really believe in LOA but how can I use it when I am not even able to put myself together not to cry. I repeat and repeat positive and uplifting sentences to myself, but they don't come from the heart. From the heart, I just have to cry. Do you have any idea how can I mange this passage?