Holding on to your good things.

Hello, I'm completely new to all this forum stuff. I'm 20 years old, and in college. I started out in NY (Long Island) going to college, and I started talking to this guy on the phone who I've known for over a year through the internet. He always was my definition of a perfect man (Things in common and such). Well, I really wanted to see him in person, and he wanted to see me. The only problem was that he lived in California and I in NY. I thought about it getting and receiving enough money every day KNOWING I was going to go there. I sold some belongings. Then my school had a raffle for an ipod touch. Right then, I KNEW I was going to win it. There wasn't a doubt in my mind. And soon enough I did. They called my name, I went to the office, collected my prize and I sold it within 3 days. I bought a student ticket to go to California for 1 week. We REALLY ended up liking each other. So I decided that I wanted to move there, and go to college. Only problem was I had no money. Within 1 month of positive thinking I had every expense that I needed to go there. And right now, I am typing to you from my apartment in Los Angeles California. I'm in a relationship with the same man of my dreams. And I am working on thinking about money, car perhaps, and an apartment together. Sometimes I think that everything is soo perfect, how could this be. Sometimes I catch myself with worry that it's going to go away. I quickly change my thought and try and try to KNOW that I am KEEPING what I have forever. I am in love.