Recently, I have been struggling with accepting NUMEROUS aspect of myself to the point where I am homebound because I am just too embarrassed to show myself to the world. I have the perfect image of what I wish to look like but I feel as though it's just too much to ask for. Slimmer calves, smaller hands and feet, longer hair with looser curls, an inch or two off my height, too much!
I guess I want closure on whether or not this could be done and, if it could be, how do I go about doing this? I feel as though I can achieve my perfect mental image but I have no idea where to start! The most I have done was listen to YouTube subliminals for height decrease to go from 5'9 to, at most, 5'7 ( which I think I am seeing very small results from ) and building playlists based on various aspects of my body.
I am desperate at this point and would take any pointers, links, stories, any form of help! Thank you so much in advance!