So i was on this site a few years ago. At the time I wanted to manifest perkier boobs and a toned stomach in a short amount of time for a job. I had photos on my page and got a lot of positive encouragement from people saying I didnt need to change.
Now fast forward, I got into substance abuse with my fiance at the time.. and i started hearing voices that told me im fat and ugly. Its been a looong time and Im coming back to my belief systems which have been shattered. I gained 30 pounds in all the wrong places.. my hair fell out and i look literally like a completely different person. I even ended up homeless on the street at one point being abused.
I cant stand looking at myself in the mirror. I feel like this while voices are telling me 24/7 telling me "youre gross, your fat your ugly all the guys know youre fat now hes cheating on you."
(with a pretty girl with a nice body) im obviously seeing a doctor but that doesnt fix my aesthetics. I have tried to start working out (which i used to do regularly along with the law of attraction) but i am SO HEAVY that i can only do a fraction of a workout.
Please give me any advice you would for getting a flatter stomach and longer hair. I cant stand walking around like this anymore and meeting new people while I look like this. I turn down people inviting me out or going on dates because of my look. I no longer do modeling photoshoots so Im losing out on money that I need.
The main photo on my profile is an old picture and Ive attached 2 more old pictures. the one where im modeling in was around the time that I originally posted in this forum. I honestly cant even post a current picture right now because its so depressing but im sure i created a visual. thanks guys.. any out of the box advice would help :) <3