I decided to start a new chapter in my life. I have been practicing LOA the wrong way and my love is now engaged. I do not want to boring you with all the details; I am trying to forget the past.
I have decided to start practicing detachment and start a new life without him; I am ready. If he comes back fine and if not, it is fine too. I am tired of being alone and sad. I have tried to stay positive and I was able to do it until I decided to check his page where he announced his engagement. I have not been able to recover since then. The best for me its to try to let go. I know I should have not check his page, I was going out with friends, meeting new people, going to the gym, but I truly believe that very thing happens for a reason, this helped me realize that I was doing all those things to get him back, not for me. This time its for me.
I woke up this morning feeling a bit sad and thinking about him, but I am letting go, I need to do this to regain my sanity!!
My goal is to go back to the gym, go out on the weekends with friends and spend tine with my grandkids; not on that order.
I will start by writing my wish list for a new relationship, I just have to wait to be in a better mood.
Thank you for allowing me to vent. I do not have friends that I can talk about this or family members, without being judged. I am grateful for this forum.