Dont give up, it is a marathon not a sprint. I connected with my guide in Jan 2009 and am now starting to really connect deeply with her, it takes time and effort. For a while she seemed to disapear too, so it can come and go. I love this website: paganspath.com there is a bunch of great content about spirit guides and meditations to meet them. http://www.paganspath.com/meta/index.htm if you scroll down to the bottom there is great stuff under how to's. Good luck.