I wouldnt say I am an amateur at applying the law of attraction, Ive known about it for a few years now and I do start to use it more i notice, it times of need/distress. However, Ive made it a point to really use it on a daily basis and not forget about the magic I have found in my life.
I recently received an eviction notice with another list of negative events following. However I went full force with different processes, and I became fully motivated. I shortly after obtained my bartender certification which I put off years ago, AND landed a job immediately at a very cool bar!
Anyway, I was soooooo grateful for this job, thanked the universe everyday during my gratitude prayers, and I just got the call about an hour ago that they have to let me go due to lack of experience; they really dont have the time for such extensive training.
I really feel crushed and confused; I actually manifested a couple of large things just yesterday, that I have been needing. (such as a bed and a working vaccuum) completley FREE! so I was on top of the world yesterday.. then this happens. luckily I will be staying with my daughters dads family for a little while, but I just got onto a waiting list for some apartments that will have a unit available for me in a month... this was going to give me enough cushion to save up the money and have a steady income.. and now I feel totally screwed and defeated.
I am notorious for even using the law of polarity, and really looking at things for the positive light and uplifting others as well.. but i really do not know what to do.
I only want to bartend; I do not want an office job because I model as well and really need exposure and to create my whole "image" as I am planning on launching my music career.. which I want sooo badly. It is my passion.
Sorry for my life story. lol I guess I kind of needed to vent, and noone of my friends are into the law of attraction, the secret, meditation, my lifestyle ect.
any advice/upliftement would be great. im not sure where to go from here. (I also have a little trouble "allowing" or surrendering i notice.. i almost have to force myself to, especially since I have found this personal power which resides in me.)
thank you! peace and love