I first read The Secret about 5 years ago. I was in a very unhappy marriage, I hated my job and nothing seemed to go right until I started to use the LOA and the guidelines in The Secret. Things started to happen and I felt so much happier. I got out of the marriage with less grief than I anticipated, my work led me to bigger and better things, I moved by the sea (a childhood dream) and I fell in love again. I thanked God everyday and put out gratitude to the Universe. But.... Things started to go wrong,,, my partner was not the man he said he was and after a year of unhappiness, left crying and he stole from me lots of times...I knew I had to get out. . We split up and although this is what I wanted, I felt so low and alone. I read The Secret again and started to feel more confident and happy. I moved into to my dream flat with sea view and got promoted and things started to happen again. I felt happy inside until my ex started to text me saying he was an idiot and didn't realise what he had and didn't appreciate me the way he should have. We went out a couple of times and had an amazing time. He showed me the person I fell in love with and I felt that we could make things work. He texted me just before Christmas and said he wanted to treat me to a weekend away to Dublin as he never bothered with treats for me before. I was so excited. On the day we were suppose to go, he didn't answer his phone and I was left crying on my own again. I couldn't believe it.
We have spoken since mainly about the money he owes me - I looked after him for almost a year as he couldn't find a job and I paid for everything. He took me for granted and it wasn't until I found out he wasn't looking for a job, I started an IOU list.
Anyway, he has now posted pictures on FB with a new girlfriend. This has broken me. I can't believe he is still hurting me. Why can I not stop thinking about him when I wanted to leave him so long ago?
I don't ask for much, just a man that is caring, funny and loving. I see all my friends with loving marriages and beautiful children and just wish it is my turn soon.
Sorry this has gone on a bit now. Can anyone give me any advice to stop thinking about him and how I can manifest my dream man?
God bless you all. Kx