I feel like I've lost. I had a picture taken of me today. I was feeling so confident and happy, but the second I saw the picture, I felt like everything I've worked so hard for was shattered. I looked nothing like how I desired to despite feeling like I did. My chin was so large, my nose was monstrous and crooked, and overall, I looked so hideous. I've spent years trying to change to no avail, and this only proves it. I've failed. I've done everything right, and this is my reward. I am hideous. I asked my mother if the picture was accurate, and she said it was. She basically said I was as hideous as I thought. I swear that I broke hearing that. I haven't been able to stop crying. I feel like a failure. I feel so damn ugly. I worked so hard to try and gain my desired appearance, but nothing is there. I'm done with this.