For the longest time, I was living terribly.
I had no friends, and had terrible self esteem.
After reading the secret, I began feeling the feeling of having all these wonderful friends.
After a few weeks, I was suddenly living exactly how I had always wanted to, hanging out with the people I always wanted to. I had a ton of new friends and was VERY happy.
It felt so perfect, I was scared to go back where I was before. I began remembering how much my life sucked before, and how terrible it was, not having any friends when I needed them.
I developed a huge fear of not having alot of friends anymore, and as a result, that's exactly what happened.
My friends and I got into a fight, a fight we still have never recovered from, forcing me to hang out with my "not so close" friends.
I want to go back to the perfect life I once lived, but for some reason, I just can't remember what it was like, having everything, when all of a sudden I lost it all.
I now have a very small (less than 5) number of friends, and I feel so mad all the time, and so shut off from the world.
I feel like I cannot control my mind and my thoughts, though I had done it once before.
I miss my friends sooooooooo much, and would give my life to have them back.
But how can I do it?