What are your Powerful Intentions?
To feel better about myself after a recent breakup and my irrational behavior during and after. I think he is such a great guy for me and i want him back as my man. We deserve to love each other. I just wish I could take back all the hurtfull things ive said. I just have this feeling still. We can get to a better place. I need help and guidance.
What are your Intended Results in joining this community?
Inlightment and peacc. I have always been into loa.
Do you feel you have been attracted to be here in an inspired and positively enthusiastic way? If the answer is no, you are in the wrong place! :-} If the answer is yes, Welcome Aboard!
Yes!
About Me:
Im a beautiful person inside and and out, but my actions lately havent been of kindness or love to much.
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I ask myself how can this be .. how can you not want to try, did he really love me? I know all i can do is keep moving forward, but im in love with him. I want to be together in a better place. How if he doesn't want to even see me.
Im feeling sad.
Well I'm at the stage of letting go. Crazy enough he backed out of plans that we kind of made this weekend. So... of course I felt upset and sad that he did that. He actually told me he was going to go with his friend instead for whatever reason, he did that. I was pretty hurt. At that moment I was like I can't do this to myself. We still have plans for the 27th. He said for sure we are going!
Im just tired of being sad where not together when clearly we are not together lol... So I need to let go and let be. I have so much love, potential and creativity to let one person make me so sad, when all I wanted was to love him and be loved back. I still am trying to figure out our relationship. I mean I realy thought we had something. I was in 2 other serious relationships and this one I just don't understand. I thought there was something special. Like a real bond. Am I delusional? I was w/ man and lived with him for four years and I new deep down we would never get married and with him even if we were arguing he woudl still open the car door for me, so sweet. With my ex now I feel like we just are two peas in a pod w/ a little more fire. We do understand each other. I mean i think he is a great catch and I am also. I have so much to offer. Im not saying Im ready to be in another relationship with another man yet, but I have to realize that, that is a possibility and Im open to it.
On a better note I have accomplished a lot in a little time. So Im proud of that!
Work is great, fitness is excellent, my business is getting busier. My family is awesome. I work hard for everything I have and I need to give myself a lot more credit then I do. haha I realy do got it going on. I am successful in so many ways. Atleast now I know that I need to keep myself in check. My emotions and my mind right for the next time Im going to be in a relationship. Let's see what exciting new venutures the universe has instore for me. Alway's exciting to feel good and know amazing things and people will start coming in and back into my life ;) on such a higher level.
Making progress. I haven't seen my boyfriend in over a month. Since the break up. We had plans to go to a couple of music festivals together in February. We would text here and there hello, crazy me etc... Yesterday I decided tosend him a text and just ask if he would still be down to go to the one at the end of the month. I did not get a responce right away, but i went about my day. When I got out of work he called me. We catched up a little and then talked about the festival and made plans to go. Im excited I really wanted to go and with him. I was like cool I'll see him in a few weeks. Wasn't gonna sweat it. Then today he asks me what about the concert this weekend. I m shocked. I figured he was just going to leave it at that. Now he going to pick me up on Friday. lol.. It is kind of weird, because like were going as"friends"
Did the drunk thing and said some crazy. I apologized he excepted.. maybe he felt my pain. I had just lost a very close friend of mine to pneumonia. I was a mess and when i needed him most. He was not there to lean on. This all happened within 1 week of each other. It's going on the 3rd week. This week I was actually off. I worked on my business. I text him one to say hope he was good. Then I showed him my business cards. He replied, said he liked them.
You know i admire him and how hard working he is and it inspires me to do the same. I really like what we can accomplish together.
So I am hoping that space does make the heart grow fonder.
As far as texting him something nice, you know my friend is like let him miss you. Let him wonder how I am. So ill do my best I of course would love to speak him to him everyday. I just want him to want to speak me to me ya know.
Anywho I have been doing what im supposed to be doing. Living my awesome life that I forgot about. Haha... I am blessed truly. Just brokenhearts at any age all the time suck.
Its cool to do a new process expressing through here, with peeps in the same boat.
Im excited to post updates.