Laguna Beach, California
What are your Powerful Intentions?
My powerful intention is to have Spirit (God) use me as an instrument to tell my story of near death, in a way to inspire others, and to show that the Spiritual laws He created can all be found in the Bible.
What are your Intended Results in joining this community?
To learn how to love, create and forgive so I can love more fully.
Do you feel you have been attracted to be here in an inspired and positively enthusiastic way? If the answer is no, you are in the wrong place! :-} If the answer is yes, Welcome Aboard!
To share with you a brief history, I was homeless as a teenager for two-and-half years where I lived in the streets begging for food and change. As you can imagine, my life was filled with a great deal of uncertainty. By divine grace and guidance, I took shelter in the parking lot of a gym. The owner of the gym noticed me camping out there and after several weeks took me in. Pretty soon I had been adopted by the group of bodybuilders there and was given the nickname 'Pup'. However, it was after the very painful experience of my father committing suicide six months after getting off the street that I began my personal journey into spiritual growth and began questioning how I could affect a greater number people in a more loving, profound and personal way. Over the course of several years I went from being homeless to living in a condo on a golf course and representing the United States in international events culminating in winning the middleweight title of the IFBB Mr. North America bodybuilding competition. At the same time I co-founded a nutritional which exploded in the nutrition market and by age 27 I made my first million. Being young, I then squandered my first 3 million to turn around and build it again and again…slow learner at times! Many of my lessons learned through out my spiritual path have been in the face of adversity. While “crisis” has often had its own way of waking me to the moment and reminding me of what is important to me now, it is not a requirement of this journey. Just when I thought I had a handle on life, the handle broke. I've learned another new lesson about life; love and knowing one's self. In April I had an aortic anyeruism. It required three surgeries and I was given a 10% chance of survival and I was on life-support for 3 weeks. While I lived, my personal relationship at the time did not. To her credit, she did provide some support the first 2-weeks I was home. Since that time I've begun to take steps on my own but still use my crutch's often. I've proven the doctor's wrong on all that they told me would be my new reality. I went off diaylisis for which I was to be on for the rest of my life, my bladder returned to normal and just this week I returned to the gym. Previously I was house bound and depending on my ex-girlfriend for support. I've learned people will promise anything and tell you what you want to hear in order to gain what they want (in this case money). I've learned people only perceive that which they wish and will discount reality in a heart beat to fit their own drama and pain. For the last few weeks as I was house bound, I was accused of many horrendous things including being unfaithful, which I never was. I later discovered she cheated on me twice. This was of course painful as I read all about the evenings because it was posted on what is called The Erotic Review. That in itself is another story I can share in person...let's just say I was trying to rescue a woman and her family from what I thought was a terrible tragedy of being forced into a profession that is unsavory. Instead it turned out to be nothing more than a con game. She told me how she still was in love with her past boyfriend and that when she looked at photos of us prior to my recent hospital stay they disgusted her as I looked fat. That it was almost like looking at photos of a fat woman and seeing a skinny version trying to get out. Please remember it was my physique that allowed me to escape the streets. She knew how difficult a time I was having adjusting to losing 50lbs during my hospital stay. Then to be told you lookk disgusting. Why do I share this? Because I realized that my last relationship was attracted from the abuse I suffered as a child from my Mother. Therefore decades later I attract the exact image of my Mom, who leaves me to die at a point in my life where I was dependant on her. Once again to be betrayed, abanadoned and unloved. Therefore I released and have forgiven my Mom. Am thankful for this new lesson I've learned and am ready to attract a truly loving relationship which will lead us to love and family. I'm looking to create a realtionship that is both passionate and honest. One in which we will have dinner parties with both old and new friends.