What are your Powerful Intentions?
To be happy, joyous, and free. To understand best how to work with all the energies, whether animate or inanimate, to further the positive evolution of both this earth and universe.
What are your Intended Results in joining this community?
To help me learn how to keep positive change and manifestaion alive in my life.
Do you feel you have been attracted to be here in an inspired and positively enthusiastic way? If the answer is no, you are in the wrong place! :-} If the answer is yes, Welcome Aboard!
I come from an extremly abusive home which I dealt with by usng alcohol and drugs. I started drinking when I was 11 and started using drugs when I was 13. By the time I was 16 I was in a rather large motorcycle gang and I've witnessed some horrible things. To be honest, I thought violemce was funny because of my homelife. I actually liked watching. My feeling was if I had to suffer wy not them. That's how sick I was. Of course today I won't even watch an R-rated movie because I can't stand the language, sex, and vilolence. Somehow I did make my way to college where I majored in psychology. I also met my husband there. Although the drinking and drug use continued, I did graduate, got married and earned 2 master's degrees, one in special education, and the other in rehabilitation counseling. I also became a school psychologist. And had the most wonderful son on earth. I am proud to say I did not use while pregnant. I worked as a teacher in a special school for kids with severe behavior disorders. In other words, they were great big gang kids who lived with violence. I chose this career for a simple reason: I was one of them. I understood them. My life went on, drinking and drugging until I was first introduced to Louise Hay in the late 1980s. At this point I was an alcoholic, a drug addict, and I had bulimia. I was a horrible mother. Not abusive, but neglectful. The fact that I missed my child's early years still haunts me and probably always will. When I read, You Can Heal Your Life was my first introduction to the concept of forgiveness.I refused to forgive for years because I believed it let them off the hook. When I finally intued that forgiveness was for me and meant letting go I was able to forgive. I had also always toyed with Einstein's Theory of Relativity because it seemed to me that his theroy and the explaination of God were one and the same. What is God? Something that always was and always will be. What is energy? Something that can be neither created nor destroyed. To me they were one and the same. God is energy. And the combination of all the energy on this earth creates something greater (a gestalt) that can be manipulated by our thoughts and actions. The more I thought about it and learned about the aliveness of everything, how everything gives off an electrical vibration, how everything has waves with subatomic particles that bouce in set patterns and attract similar vibratons, the moreI understood my world and why I did the things I did. .And why the negative kept coming into my life. Because I was attracing it through my output. And I have the ability to change that. That's what's wonderful about being human. I'm grateful to say that I've been clean and sober for about 4 years. But this lengthy story doesn't end here. After my first year of sobriety I started to get really sick. High fevers, chronic pain, exhaustion. When I was diagnosed and was told that it was caused by my having wiped out my immune system through my addictions and that I would be in bed for about a yeat and then after that have the fibromyalgia and the fatigue I really thought m life was over. I can't walk well, I get confused easily, my photographic memory is gone. I'm not allowed to drive. Awful, huh? Well, it's not. I believe there's a reason for everything. I had the childhood I had so I could teach those kids. And I got sick so I could share my story and hopefully help others. And that's what I'm doing. And the more I learn about the energies and attraction, intention, and manifestation, the more I can share and learn. And hopefully help change the vibration of this planet and, on a larger sense, this universe. As I seek to do the right thing I put out positive energy that hopefully changes everything around me. And I believe that if we all do that, think on a global level as well as a personal and interpersonal level then we can truly change what appears to be out of reach. That's why I'm here. There's a blessing and a lesson in everything. It's been 3 1/2 years and I'm learning both. And believe it or not, I'm grateful. Because I'm in a unique position yet again to make a difference. Still not all there but that's ok. As more is revealed the more I can do. And if I could work, drive, etc I wouldn't be in the position to make a difference. And for that I am truly grateful. Because all of our lives depend on those who want to make a positive change on this earth. And I intend to do it one person at a time, starting with me. Blessings to you all!